Lyrics: Kaun Hai?

@Music & Lyrics by : Farid Ishak

Aap Ki Saath Chahiye (1990s)
(I Long For You)

The Story

I think for many people, falling in love is not something that will happen only once in a lifetime, you’ll probably fall in love a couple of times and by the time you get to the 3rd time, you know what is waiting for ya. If you’re something like me, you’ll probably figure that the feeling is not going to be mutual, but you will allow yourself to feel it anyway and you’ll wait in peace and quiet, with some good movies and good food, for the moment when those feelings go away,…

I wrote this in the early 1990s. This is the only song on the album that has the format of old indian songs.

Chorus

Phir wohi raaseta
Phir wohi dar yahan
Kia main karoon

Aape ki
Saath chahiye
Aape Ki

Kai Raaten Dhal Chuken
Phir bhi tum paas na ho
Kia main karoon

Aape ki
saath chahiye
Aape Ki

Verse I

Guda se main duwaen, yehi karoon.
Ke eke pal mein hum tum, sada rahe
Kaisi chahat hai, dil chupeta nahin
saha na jaata hai, yaad ata hai
Tumhari saath, chahiye

Phir wohi raaseta
Phir wohi dar yahan
Kia main karoon

Aape ki
saath chahiye
Aape Ki

Verse II

Zuban pe naam kayi hum, Le chuke
Magar teri hi naame lekar, Ham Jie
Chupke chupeke bhi, saason men tum
Jaan deti hai, chain hota hai
Tumhari saath, chahiye

Chorus
Phir wohi raaseta
Phir wohi dar yahan
Kia main karoon

Aape ki
saath chahiye
Aape Ki

Kai Raaten Dhal Chuken
Phir bhi tum paas na ho
Kia main karoon

Aape ki
saath chahiye
Aape Ki

Chorus

Again the same road
Again the same anxiety
What do I do

I long for you
for you

Many nights have passed
Yet you’re not here with me
What do I do

I long for you
for you

Verse I

I keep praying to God
That in one moment we stay together forever.
What kind of desire is this, my heart wont stop talking
I can’t bear it, you’re on my mind
I long for you

Again the same road
Again the same anxiety
What do I do

I long for you
for you

Verse II

I have called many names
But calling out your name keeps me alive
Even when I’m silent, with every breath I take
you give me life, I’m comforted.
I long for you

Chorus
Again the same road
Again the same anxiety
What do I do

I long for you
for you

Many night have passed
Yet you’re not here with me
What do I do

I long for you
for you

 Kahin Hosh Na Kho Jaen
(Hope I Don’t Lose My Mind)

The Story

As a kid I was shy and insecure about myself. I would never dare to approach a girl I liked. There was always the fear that girls saw me as an awkward and weird kid. Which was partially true I think.

But there was this one time I picked up some courage to ask a girl out. I walked over to the girl, tapped on her shoulder, she turned around and I froze completely. My left arm was up in the air doing something I don’t know what and there was this very long moment of silence. I can remember that my lips were moving, but no words came out. Then she said some girls were talking about me (which I thought was weird, cool and worrying at the same time, but wow,… girls were talking about me) and that was that. I never found out what it was.

Yes, those were hard times, luckily that is all in the past. I am older and confident now. 
But you know, there are still some times that I feel awkward or actually that is most of the time and maybe I am also a bit lost for words and maybe I still have a liiiiitle bit of fear left and stuff and uhm… actually you know what, forget what I said.

Verse I
baithe kar main idhar,
Socheta hoon main kia bataoon
Aap se milenge kabhi phir hum kahin
Kahin hosh na kho jaen

Refrain
Kahin hot na chup ho jaen
Kahin saas na rukh jaen
Asha hai aap yunhi aise
Has ke na chal jaen

Verse II
Sirfe eke pal main chahoon
Sirfe eke pal sunlo
Chahe aankhen na milaon
Sirf ek pal do
Kahin hosh na kho jaen

Refrain
Kahin hot na chup ho jaen
Kahin saas na rukh jaen
Asha hai aap yunhi aise
Has ke na chal jaen

Bridge
Suna suna lageta hai
Jaise yunhi waqt rukh gaya hai
Khoya khoya, man hai mera
Lab pe phir bhi, shabde ruken hain
Kuch kahena tha, muhje tumse pyare hai.

Verse I

Sitting here alone, thinking
what I am going to say
When I ever meet you again
somewhere,
Hope I don’t lose my mind

Refrain
I hope my lips don’t stop moving
I hope my breath doesn’t stop
I hope you won’t laugh
and walk away

Verse II
I would like to have just one moment
Just listen for one moment
Even if you won’t look at me
Just give me one moment
Hope I don’t lose my mind

Refrain
I hope my lips don’t stop moving
I hope my breath doesn’t stop
I hope you won’t laugh
and walk away

Bridge
All seems very quiet
As if time has stopped
My mind is a bit lost
But on my lips there are some words waiting
Just wanted to say, I am in love with you

Doerian Nazdeekian (2002s)
(Unreachable, yet close)

The Story

Falling in love is a very powerful emotion to go through and maybe also a bit addictive at a young age. When the feeling is not mutual, to learn to let go can take some time, but it is indeed a necessary step to take.
As an adult It can be a very painful process and it does make you stronger, but it also makes you a bit cautious to fall in love again.

ps:
I wrote and sang this song somewhere in 2002. The vocal recording you hear on the album is from from that time. The emotion and expression tells the story right, so thought I would leave the vocals the way it was.

Doerian nazdeekian hai,
pyare ki yeh baat kiun hai,
Kahin doer na jao oh sanam kabhi
tere bina ji nahin lageta kahin

Magar tumhe,
chorna parega kabhi
aage bharna hoga kabhi
ise dunia men

kahin dil kho na jae use raha par
kahin doer ho na jae apeni man ki zuban

Doerian nazdeekian hai,
phir bhi tumko chorna hain
kahin sacha pyare kho na jae dunia men
kabhi doer na ho jaoon apne aape se

Doerian nazdeekian hai,
kayi dinon se pyare hai

Doerian nazdeekian hai
tumko nahin chorna hai

Doerian nazdeekian hai
doerian doerian hai

Unreachable, yet (you) feel(s) close
Why is there such a thing like love
Don’t ever go out of my reach
nothing feels right without you

But I have to let you go, one of these days
I have to move forward, one of these days,
in this world

Hope I don’t lose my heart on that road
Hope I don’t lose my sense of reasoning

Unreachable, yet (you) feel(s) close
But I have to let you go
Hope I haven’t lost my true love in this world
Hope I don’t lose myself

Unreachable, yet (you) feel(s) close
I have loved (you) for some time

Unreachable, yet (you) feel(s) close
I don’t want to let you go

Unreachable, yet (you) feel(s) close
Unreachable, it is unreachable.

Sone Bhi Do
(Let Me sleep)

The Story

Falling in love when you’re a kid is a cool thing. The thing that I remember the most is not being able to sleep because I was thinking of her, having the most fantastic fantasy conversations and heroic situations where I would be the hero and save everyone including the girl from villains. I sometimes even would die saving her and everyone else. Yes thinking those fantasy stuff kept me awake and it also did not help that I sometimes had insomnia, unfortunately I still do…

Sone bhi do, yaad aata hai kiun, tu mujhko
Sone bhi do

Baaten tujse sau baar maine ki
Haste haste kai baar jaan di
Neende kho gaya hoon
Phir ye khvaaben kiun
Pagal pan hai ye
Na samajh hai
Kaisi halate hai ye

Sone bhi do, yaad aata hai kiun, tu mujhko
Sone bhi do, yaad aata hai kiun, tu mujhko
Sone bhi do

Raate din maya ki araam
Lat lag gayi, bas yehi hai inaam
Udaas hokar bhi
Samajh raha hoon main
Pagal pan hai yeh
Na samajh hai
Kaisi halate hai ye

Solo (Sleepy James)

Sone bhi do, yaad aata hai kiun, tu mujhko
Sone bhi do, yaad aata hai kiun, tu mujhko
Sone bhi do

Let me sleep, why do I keep thinking of you
Let me sleep

I have talked to you a hundred times
Smilingly have I given my life many times
I have lost my sleep
then why these dreams
This is crazy
There is no understanding this
What kind of state is this

Let me sleep, why do I keep thinking of you
Let me sleep, why do I keep thinking of you
Let me sleep

Day and night I find comfort in illusions
I am addicted, that’s just my reward.
Altough i’m melancholic
I understand that
This is crazy
There is no understanding this
What kind of state is this

Solo (Sleepy James)

Let me sleep, why do I keep thinking of you
Let me sleep, why do I keep thinking of you
Let me sleep

Kaun Hai Hum
(Who Are We)

The Story

It was in the beginning of December 2019. I was at my mothers place and wrote this song in 15 minutes, melody, chords and lyrics.
This was after a long period of hearing and reading news of the world and not being able to set it aside.
Sometimes good people are dragged into believing something they don’t and sometimes they need to be reminded of that.

Zuban ko yoonhi
Chupaya nahin
Logon Ke Liye
Logon ne kaha
Chup raho
Kuch huwa nahin
Hum khush hai yahan
Sab theek hai yahan

Magar… baen taraf dekh
Magar… daen taraf dekh

Pathar banaya hai dil ko
Darde ko samhajte nahin
Bhool hi gaya
Kitena mohazzab,
Kitena hi nek
Insaan hai hum
Bhool hi gaya

Magar… baen taraf dekh
Magar… daen taraf dekh

Kaun hai hum
Kia hai hum
Kisene Paala hai humko
Kaun hai hum
Kia hai hum
Bangaye hum djo banna hi tha

Insaan
(Insaniyat)

I did not hide my words
for people
People have said
Don’t speak
Nothing has happened
We are happy here
Everything is alright

But look to your left
But look to your right

Hearts have turned into stone
Suffering is not understood
It has been forgotten
How civilized
How virtuous, good, noble and kind
we Humans are
It has been forgotten

But look to your left
But look to your right

Who are we
What are we
Who raised us
Who are we
What are we
Have we become what we should have become

Human,
(Humane)

Teri Khwaish (1990s)
(Your wish/ or I know what you want)

The Story

When I was younger, we used to have gigs at festivals, dance parties, clubs and other events. The majority of the people would come there just to have fun. But some guys would be there to pick up girls. There is nothing wrong with that, as long there is no force. It’s just that I have seen only a handful of times where it did work. The other times the guys are just completely wrong in reading the situation. This song is about what I think goes through the mind of one those clueless guys who’s chasing a girl who doesn’t even know he exists.

I Wrote this somewhere beginning 2000s, it didn’t take long to write it. At that time it was one those things that just happened.

Verse I
Teri ankhen mujhe, yunhi dekheta rahe
kaho kia hai labe pe
Jis taraf bhi jaoon main, har kadam pe teri saas

Refrain
Teri khwaish mujhko pata hai
Kaho kehedoon main
Ankhon mein hai likha
Abe jukhe nahin paoge
Phir bhi kahin

Verse II
Us taraf baithekar, ankhon se mujhko
pukarta rahe
Teri muskurahat mein, kai baaten chupa huwa hai

Refrain
Teri khwaish mujhko pata hai
Kaho kehedoon main
Ankhon mein hai likha
Abe jukhe nahin paoge
Phir bhi kahin

Solo (Flirty Joe)

Bridge
Raat ki khamosian mein phir tum
Har ek kadam rakh kar mujhko
Pagal banate ja rahe ho
Apeni badan se bhi mujhko
Ulhjan deti hai tum yahan
Dheere dheere paas aah

Verse III
Zara kehedo mujhe kab tum paas aoge
Ab to raasta hai saaf
Tumko maloom hai, hamko maloom hai
Dheere dheere paas ah

Refrain
Teri khwaish mujhko pata hai
Kaho kehedoon main
Ankhon mein hai likha
Abe jukhe nahin paoge
Phir bhi kahin

Verse I
Your eyes are following me around,
Tell me what is it that you want to say
wherever I go, each step I take I feel your breath

Refrain
I know what you want
Do you want me to say it
It’s written in your eyes
There is nowhere for you to hide

Verse II
Sitting over there, you call me with your eyes,
There are so many unspoken words in your smile

Refrain
I know what you want
Do you want me to say it
It’s written in your eyes
There is nowhere for you to hide

Solo (Flirty Joe)

Bridge
With every step you take
in the silence of the night
You make me crazy
You give me turmoil, with your body
Walk slowly to me

Verse III
Just tell me now, when are you going to come
The road has been made clear
You know it, I know it
Walk slowly to me

Refrain
I know what you want
Do you want me to say it
It’s written in your eyes
There is nowhere for you to hide

Sirf Insaan Hoon
(I Am Only Human)

The story

We all, sooner or later, learn to cope with death,…
When I was 6 or 7 years old, I had my first ever puppy crush on a Spanish girl, her name was Maria Fernandez. Being shy, I never let her know that I had a crush on her. I remember going back to school after the big summer holiday and hearing that she had past away, my little heart broke into million pieces.

 

Refrain
Sirf insaan hoon
Zakhmon ki nishan hoon
Kabhi hota hai kamzoor dil
Kabhi hota majboor

Sirf Insaan hoon, sirf insaan

Verse I
Haton mein teri tasweer lekar
Jhoometa hoon , taras raha hoon
Dia dil kisko maine?
Chordia wo, chalgaya wo
Khamosh hoon

Refrain
Sirf insaan hoon
Zagmon ki nishan hoon
Kabhi hota hai kamzoor dil
Kabhi hota majboor

Sirf Insaan hoon, sirf insaan

Verse II
Baaton ki zaroorat hain nahin
Kehete the log, haath thaam ke
Sambhaloon kaise dil apena
Wo nahin hai aur, kabhi nahin ayega
Dil toot gaya

Refrain
Sirf insaan hoon
Zagmon ki nishan hoon
Kabhi hota hai kamzoor dil
Kabhi hota majboor

Sirf Insaan hoon, sirf insaan

 

Refrain
I am only human
I am the mark of wounds
Sometimes the heart is vulnerable
sometimes it is helpless

I am only human, only human

Verse I
Holding your picture in my hand,
I am swaying, I am tortured
Who did I gave my heart too?
She has let go of me, she has gone away
I am silenced

Refrain
I am only human
I am the mark of wounds
Sometimes the heart is vulnerable
sometimes it is helpless

I am only human, only human

Verse II
you don’t have to say anything,
that’s what people said, holding my hand.
How will I handle my heart
She is not here and she will never come again
My heart is broken

Refrain
I am only human
I am the mark of wounds
Sometimes the heart is vulnerable
sometimes it is helpless

I am only human, only human

There Is Hope

The Story

Sometimes I get a bit depressed and there is this feeling of sadness and a strange sense of clarity.
For me personaly, it might take a day or so, but I know that the feeling eventually will go away.
I’ve learned to try and transition the feeling into something less dominant by watching movies, tv shows, mangas or read a book, at least something in which the story has friendship, heroism, bravery and kindness in it.

And sometimes I don’t do any of those things and I start composing music to try and change how I feel. This track is one of those efforts.

Flight To Scotland With Bogart

The story

I never saw the movie Casablanca (with the famous line ‘Here’s looking at you kid’ )
I only remember seeing a picture of Bogart in a white suit in an illuminated bar.
When I was a kid I used to imagine or “hear” latin music with that image.
When I got my new musical toys I started composing and thought about that picture.
Why Scotland in the title?….  hmm Why not?